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The Way I Used to Be
by Amber Smith


Overview - A New York Times bestseller

In the tradition of Speak , this extraordinary debut novel shares the unforgettable story of a young woman as she struggles to find strength in the aftermath of an assault.

Eden was always good at being good.  Read more...


 
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Overview
A New York Times bestseller

In the tradition of Speak, this extraordinary debut novel shares the unforgettable story of a young woman as she struggles to find strength in the aftermath of an assault.

Eden was always good at being good. Starting high school didn't change who she was. But the night her brother's best friend rapes her, Eden's world capsizes.

What was once simple, is now complex. What Eden once loved--who she once loved--she now hates. What she thought she knew to be true, is now lies. Nothing makes sense anymore, and she knows she's supposed to tell someone what happened but she can't. So she buries it instead. And she buries the way she used to be.

Told in four parts--freshman, sophomore, junior, and senior year--this provocative debut reveals the deep cuts of trauma. But it also demonstrates one young woman's strength as she navigates the disappointment and unbearable pains of adolescence, of first love and first heartbreak, of friendships broken and rebuilt, and while learning to embrace a power of survival she never knew she had hidden within her heart.

 
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  • ISBN-13: 9781481449359
  • ISBN-10: 1481449354
  • Publisher: Margaret K. McElderry Books
  • Publish Date: March 2016
  • Page Count: 384
  • Reading Level: Ages 14-UP
  • Dimensions: 8.3 x 5.7 x 1.4 inches
  • Shipping Weight: 1 pounds


Related Categories

Books > Juvenile Fiction > Social Themes - Sexual Abuse
Books > Juvenile Fiction > Social Themes - Adolescence

 
Publishers Weekly Reviews

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  • Reviewed in: Publishers Weekly, page .
  • Review Date: 2015-12-14
  • Reviewer: Staff

According to RAINN, the largest anti-sexual-violence organization in the U.S., 80% of rapes are committed by someone the victim knows, and 68% go unreported. These statistics underpin Smiths debut, which opens with 14-year-old Eden being raped by her brothers best friend while her family sleeps down the hall. Kevin tells good-girl, band-geek Eden that no one will believe her, and shes sure that he is right: Kevin is her brothers teammate and roommate, and her family revolves around her brother. While Eden changes virtually overnight, no one knows what happenedlargely, it seems, because no one wants to. Smith tracks Eden through her four years in high school, spotlighting her shifting relationship with her friend Mara, the caring boyfriend she lies to, and her increasing acting out with booze and sex. Its painful to watch Eden disintegrate but also true to the double burden she carriesthe violation of the rape and the weight of carrying the secret. The long-term view Smith takes of Edens story makes it all the more satisfying when she does find her voice. Ages 14up. Agent: Jessica Regel, Foundry Literary + Media. (Mar.)

 
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